I thought I'd be a happy mommy after I gave birth to Nathan. However, I wasn't happy at all when I looked into the mirror. When I tried to look for some clothes I could wear from the cupboard and couldn't find any, that was hurt. I was 46kg before I conceived, then up to 64kg when gave birth. After gave birth, down for 56kg.. But due to water retention and eating alot during confinement, I hardly see myself losing any weights. I was so depressed until cried in front of the mirror. I couldn't accept the way I looked, everyone was telling me, 'you just gave birth so it's normal. It takes about 6 months to go back to normal weight'. Six months.. that's a long period.
Nathan was a gift from God for both of us. He was so adorable that everyone loves him so much. Whenever I looked at him, it eased my depresson. I breastfeed him every night before he goes to sleep and after he wokes up in the morning, the feeling of intimacy between him and I are amazing. That's why I insisted to breastfeed him everyday. I just feel so happy when I see him enjoying and being satisfied after drinking the milk. Thank God for giving us such a lovely child!
